[Post 108] Depression

No thoughts of the day for today.

Its been awhile since I've been feeling depressed..
Whoa... Joshua -> Depressed?!
Its like Joshua cannot be depressed..
Yeah.. I know what y'all are thinking.. Yep yep..

Everybody's fool by Evanescenes:



It was only today after stumbling on to this webpage
http://www.depression-guide.com/

And.. went straight looking at the symptons of depression..
Here you go:
http://www.depression-guide.com/symptoms-of-depression.htm

Well there're a few points that I'm facing at the moment.. Yeah..


After scouting through the whole site.. I found this:
http://www.depression-guide.com/thought.htm
that how powerful thoughts are..
Bwahaha..

Phew.. Yeah.. there's a cure..
and I just realised that hope and positive thoughts are that important to a person..
it can either pull a person right down to the ground... or even worse..
or the build a person greatly..
Wow!! And all starts with a thought..

and the coolest thing that caught me eyes was that faith played a role in it too..
Awesome!!

Well I think this reminds me of the vow I made yesterday..
Yep, yep!!
To a honestly, truely happy cheerful clown from the inside out all the time.. even without makeup!

P.S:
SHIT!! I was suppose to find a real good clown picture to put on.. but I can't even find a really cool 1..
Argh.. stupid people.. now I know why many people are afraid of clowns..
I think I'll not be a clown.. I'll be someone that will bring joy to other then putting on makeup and hide my true self inside..
I think.. I need not put on make ups to be myself..!!
I shall call myself "clown" (with the Inverted commas)

[Post 107] A Post That Will Change Life

Thoughts of the day:
We all have a choice
To live a lie
Or be ourselves
To laugh and cry
Or to follow someone else

To look up and smile
Or bow down and frown
To walk the whole mile
Or take off our crown

We have a choice
To shout out loud
Or chant a whisper
To fly through the clouds
Or to be blown like paper

To conquer our fear
Or hide in the shadow
To the wise words hear
Or be thrown out the window

We all have a choice
To climb our highest mountain
Or fall into our deepest hole
To drink from life's fountain
Or live life like a troubled soul

To learn love in the heart
Or grasp to hate with regret
To wake up and start
Or sleep until sunset

We all have a choice
To speak truly with ourselves
Or go against what seems

We all have a choice
To fulfill our greatest dreams
--- Copyright © 2008 Allen Steble

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Dang.. my brother's such an ass.. screw up kid!!
Well.. can't say more 'bout him though.. I wasn't such a good kid either..
but although I know I've changed still the fact is.. that I've still got a bad past..

Thank God for those people who prayed for me and saw me through my "storm" back then..
Anywoo.. Like the title says.. a decision that will change my life..

If you havn't know yet..
my dream job is to be a professional clown.. WHOA!!
Professional?? eh hello?? ain't clowning a profession itself??
ah-hah!! This is where you're wrong (to me)

Clowning is clowning..
*you do earn money but not as much as a professional 1*
(I think.. haha!!)

Yep yep!!
I want to be a clown that is not only happy on the outside but in the inside too!!
Be my witness everyone who reads this..
I don't want to end up acting my whole life covered in white powder acting happy and cheering others up.. while deep down I ain't got the joy.. such hypocrisy!!

So yep yep!! There you go people.. Its a statement and a promise that I'll made with you people out there!

[Coller 106] Flying Without Wings

Pensé Au Jour:
" Everyone comes across a fork in the road. Be spontaneous and walk through the middle."
Written in 2007 by Steven Daniel Lopez --- Washington

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It's been such a long time since i last post something.
So much happening since my last post 16 days ago.
Wow!!
and the great thing about these.. haha.. I've ran out of things to say..
all i can do is..
show off this..

Whoahoo.. I'm finally able to brag some of my flying scenes!!

[Post 105] Have you ever wonder?

Thoughts of the day:
I've wondered.. I've sturggled.. but I just can't decide..
(I've decided to change from quotes to thoughts. I'd be copying other people if i use quotes.. why not make mine into other people's quotes)

Phew.. finally got over the stress in getting a funky title..
Havent been blogging much since my last coz of the title..
Ish.. always wanted something really funky and all I got what this crap..
Anywhoo.. yea.. I've came up with a title anyway.. haha..

Working life ain't fun at all..
well atleast today is funky.. ain't sleep though..
(phew finally got the time to type some really long story after all these task was given to me..)
p.s I'm still at work!! WHAT?!!

Here's a master piece I made when I was bored at work..
Revised version by...
me!!

Yo everybodeh around the world
Got a weird thing to tell your
and bet you wanna hear
Tell your braders, your sister and your family
We're about to go down
And you know just what to do
Wave your hands in the air like you don't care
Glide by the people as they start to look and stare
Do your dance, do your dance, do your dance quick yeah
Come on people tell me what's the word

Word up (up up) everybody say
When you hear the call you've got to get it under way
Word up (up up) it's the code word
No matter where you say it you know that you'll be heard